Wednesday 1 February 2017

MOTHER IN ME

Pre-Mature birth, low birth weight, hypoglycemia, gestational diabetes, a woman who has experienced all these with her newborn baby and also has seen her mother's sudden demise on the same day. With God's grace and with her husband support she is going still strong. Life changes her from sensitive girl to a powerful mother with a sensible heart.


Cerebral Palsy is a condition which immobilizes a child physically.  Sometimes it could affect a child mental ability too. A child with cerebral palsy needs utmost care and treatment. The battle of motherhood taught me, unconditional love and selfless love. It is hard to accept that life changes completely. But with growing time and needs, I get used to looking after my son who has cerebral palsy.

The primary initiative in writing this post is to accept the unexpected changes in our lives and how to be positive. My son was diagnosed with cerebral palsy when he was 12 months old. I could not accept that it had happened to my son. The feeling was heart stabbing.  Moreover, I was in trauma with my mother's loss. There were many sleepless nights in this journey. It took for me, two years to understand what is cerebral palsy. I have come to a phase of life, preparing for the worst is the best. I imagine myself how I react if I was disabled. One of the lessons I have learnt is the value of happiness. Mother's happiness gives immense strength to her children. I try to be happy most of the times. I want to be his inspiration and want to give him the best brought up in facing challenges. So far, I am glad to see my son happily smiling. He is such a joy to care and to teach. Moving forward with his positives, makes life very much elegant.

It was so hard to take time for myself. I was very much isolated. But during this period I have learned a lot. Although it was hard to step out of the home the world was so transparent to me. Transparency of the world is ignorance, sympathetic and underestimation. 'Mother In Me' has taught me not to care about negative emotions. Sometimes I become blind and deaf to the negative emotions around me. After all, I have just seen 6 Years of motherhood, yet a lot to face.  However, in this journey, I met people with a pure heart and true love too.  The strength and love I get from them are immense. Mother in me changed the perception, how I look at the world.

 So far my journey has lot many hardships,  sacrifices, ignorance, but lessons learnt are plenty. I wouldn't be honest if I say there are no regrets. Regrets are like I should have found the delay in milestones at the earliest, so I could have started the treatment sooner. I should have done my driving test before even having a kid as I know now how important is to be independent with frequent hospital appointments.

Like I said the lessons learnt are plenty.  Now I am in a position to share my views or my experiences with someone who looks after the cerebral palsy child. I enjoy every skill I teach my child. I'm so proud of every milestone he achieved. The awareness about cerebral palsy is very little in all the aspects.  I feel privileged to work on cerebral palsy awareness through my son facebook page. I am glad that my son shows my Mother In Me, through my actions.